neighbors

wow, its been a ridiculously long time since i have written, i didn't realize it. for the last few weeks i have been on and off nauseous, just trying to get through the day- meals, school, my extremely rambunctious 2 year old. just getting the dishes mostly done and not having laundry piling up everywhere is my goal. (not always achieved)

i have been meeting some of the neighbors, which is great, although all the women around here work, so i don't have any day time company. tonight we were outside, and the bigger kids were having fun playing with my kids, so the moms came over to talk to me. they were dressed in their work clothes and their work makeup and just look so put together. as I'm talking to them, in my ratty t-shirt and way too big shorts, i am wondering to myself "did i brush my teeth today?" i know i don't look like them. not that they seem to mind, and i certainly didn't get the impression that they were judging me or anything, they seemed like genuinely nice people, but it was easy to feel out classed. I'm sure they have clean houses and go to the gym and they have full time jobs! did make me come home and start some laundry!